DEATH ROW 3 RESULTS!!!!!!

No.

None of these people look up to me. Not anymore. I don't want people who look up to Skyler, Seth, or you for that matter looking up to me cause none of you are truly being honest with yourselves in my opinion. Or maybe I just don't want to see some little kid look up to me, saying, I want to be like you.

Shit, right now, I don't want to be like me. It would be a mistake for them to look towards me, because when I looked towards them...they said fuck off. So they can fuck off too. My moral fiber can fuck off too. All of it can just fuck off and die...otherwise I kill it fucking dead, because...to borrow from someone I know...I feel the blood of it all dripping onto my skin and if it bleeds, I can kill it.

I don't want just any family...see, I put in work for the family that was Raped from me. I did all I could to have my own...and I come to find out it wasn't mine? That shit isn't fair, but moreover...someone has to pay.

Somebody.

Somewhere.

Sometime.

That's just the way it has to be, and if you have an issue with that then I guess you can cast me out too. I know you want to 'save' me. I know you want me to rise above this. But there's no way I rise above...the Chris Austin you knew...he's going to die from this.

I can feel it in my bones. And I feel an odd sense of relief from it.

I feel like a Saint when that thought crosses my mind. I feel blessed without remnants of the vessel through which I felt the worst pain.

But in reality, without that vessel...I'm a Broken man...

That wants to believe that I must replace the pain I feel with the suffering of others.

Leon Caprice wrote:

Sure there is Danse Macrabre, The A Team, Jaro's newly formed team and The Broken Saints, but none of these teams have stepped up, NONE have challenged Crash Scene.

Cute, very cute. So you're saying when two members of the Broken Saints defeat two members of one of the other teams they will be in line to challenge Crash Scene?

Be careful on what you wish for...

You know what Austin, someone can pay. I fully can accept that. The thing is, you should direct that rage, not towards the fans who love you or the talent who still call you a friend but towards those who deserve it. You should direct it towards Jaro, towards Virus, towards Danse Macabre, towards Eric Scorpio, towards Syanide.

You should use your rage to make the world a better place for all.

That sounds so cliche, I know it does, but it is possible Chris. I really feel you can still make a difference and that you still, deep down, care about this all. If you did not, you would not be having this conversation with me at all. I think you care and you want help, you want some kind of guidance and, Chris, I want to help you. I am offering my entire being to you, I want to help pull you out of this and help you guide that rage towards appropriate outlets.


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Dammit Chris, I just want to help you I swear. I will do anything if it can ease your pain, I just want to see you better before you make a decision that could hurt you even worse forever. I offer to stand by you forever, we are all BROKEN and all striving to be SAINTS Chris, you have to see that...

Drew, while your pleas are touching I can't help but catch a scant trace of desperation. It makes me wonder sometimes, when you spout off about your god are you trying to convince others or yourself?

Black Marcus wrote:

Drew, while your pleas are touching I can't help but catch a scant trace of desperation. It makes me wonder sometimes, when you spout off about your god are you trying to convince others or yourself?

I am desperate, desperate to help someone I consider a close friend. I guess being a fucking friendless bastard means you would not understand that. Being evil does that it seems.





Plus, you know, you probably smell like shrimp and ass.

OOC: Somebody sig me up before I lose the belt
Note change in base to Jericho

Sigs are coming yours and Ty's way